As I was sitting here for my quiet time I suddenly felt overwhelmed by all the people I am praying for. After calming my mind down, I asked the Lord to hear my heart and to lift up all the people that are running through my mind.
Today my friend Julie is having weight loss surgery. I will admit I am a little nervous. I also feel bad because she called yesterday and I didn't get a chance to call her back. I'm sorry Julie. I hope you are doing good. Please call me when you feel up to it.
I sometimes wish I had the healing hand kind of power. That people I prayer for or lay my hands on would be healed or given the wisdom they need. Yes I know that is reserved only for Jesus and God but just sometimes I wish I could do that also.
I feel like I am stumbling a bit right now. I know that back in July God told me to quit working** and he would provide. Which he has done every month. Last month the van was deemed unsafe to drive so it now sits. This morning I went to pick up some meat at Sunflower market. When I went to put it in our freezer I noticed that the door hadn't shut from the day before. Now I'm afraid the compressor is shot and that would cost hundreds to replace. I have been praying and asking for forgiveness all morning because it is my fault, and we can't afford to get it fixed if something is wrong. After talking to Rob, I put a cup of water in the freezer and we will check it tonight. Then I will know wether to be worried or not.
The reason I go into this is because I sometimes feel this is a test to my faith. That I must look at the bigger picture and know it will all work out. Sometimes that seems kind of hard but I believe that my faith is strong.
** I just found out that Tres Amigos is closing all of it's Phx stores by the end of this month and that sales in Tucson are really slow. So I know it was the right choice for myself to leave. :) And here is an example of the bigger picture.