Friday, September 20, 2013

A couple of weeks ago I used my new pass to cruise around Saguaro National Park. Monsoon season is pretty much over, but the desert is bright green and with barrel cactus flowers blooming.
It amazes me how only being off the main road by a couple of miles feels like complete isolation, you can't hear any cars and if it wasn't for the houses in the distance, you would think you were all alone.
Stopping at one point I got out of the truck and walked to the viewing edge. All I could hear was my own heartbeat, louder than anything else around me. I must say it takes you aback for a few moments until you can begin to hear the desert come alive. The world is not quiet by any means.
As I was looking around and taking some photos, I saw this wrong way sign and instinctively snapped a shot, I just knew it would come in handy one day.
As I've finished up this first week of Experiencing God and met with my home church, I have felt something. Basically I've stopped going the wrong way. My home church confirmed what I was asking God; was the women's retreat Carrie led or God led? I was told that if I was experiencing a crisis of belief than it was God led. Hearing that I got both excited and scared. I have begun to feel like the jack rabbit above, ears perked, listening. By the way, do you know how hard it is to get a clear picture of a jack rabbit?
Anyway, on day 5 some of the examples used were of Moses and his crisis of belief. Oh, how I  have said some of those exact same words and how I let them be a stronghold but it also confirmed that I had experienced a crisis of belief. I'm praying that those chains have been broken and that I won't fall into the trap again. Now the next step out of the seven is to adjust and make changes so that I may join God wherever he is working.
I feel hopeful, I feel I'm walking back toward a light and have firmer footing than I have had in a year.
Tomorrow's study is about our plans vs. God's plans. I'm going to get schooled on that one, ha ha.
Tomorrow is also Kelly's 11th birthday party. I'm off to make a cake!


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