Peace

 This week has been a emotional roller coaster.
I've made a commitment to myself to be more positive, to be more grateful for the things that transpire in my life. That positive commitment has been challenged and like most people would I didn't like how I reacted.
We began a new contract at work and our raise, for the foreseeable next 5 years is 13 cents. Wasn't what any of us were expecting. Having to deal with the disappointment and co workers complaining hasn't helped the negative feelings that already exude from some of my co workers. Trying very hard not to fall into that trap.
My other trigger came yesterday when we went to our Girl Scout cookie kickoff.
The lines for the activities and narrow space in which to maneuver, with bitchy type A moms just put me in a hyper critical mood. Of course then started the self bashing, which thankfully I quickly nixed.
I took it to God, asked for forgiveness and asked myself why it bothers me so much. That is something I'm still processing.

I didn't take my frustrations out on people but I complained about everything. I don't like when I become that person and all I can do is continue to grow and be better.

This first week of the new year is over and I am doing very well on my goals. Here's to staying strong and making myself proud.

Our Christmas Amaryllis has bloomed and was so pretty, I really liked the variegated pink instead of the traditional red.
This week the kids go back to school, scouts starts back up and cookie season starts Saturday, and I'm also planning on working some overtime to help pay for my shed. Plans are moving forward and shifting too. Instead of 12x20, it may be 16x16. Thankfully Rob is getting on board answering all my questions and giving me even more ideas.
I'm getting very excited.
Here's to continued growth, consistent blogging, and beauty around every corner.
Carrie

Happy New Year 2018

Last night as we rang in the new year with fireworks, the neighborhood thundered with other families doing the same. Besides smoke from the fireworks there was something in the air. It felt magical.
This morning I sat down and wrote in my journal for the first time since October 2016, wow, seriously?
As I wrote, really messy too, I came upon a realization. My blog is going to be about me and mine  not about trying to grow a possible blog following. I need to go back to or find new ways to love my blog.
This leads me to my one little word, except right now I have two. Focus and Intention.
This is my mind set right now.
My Goals, Dreams, Manifestations for 2018:
I'm driving myself crazy with the plans for a 12x20 gambrel shed. Happily crazy, excited, can't wait to start building. This shed brings me a bigger craft room and even more importantly, my girls will have their own room. My plan is to have them in there by March/April.
My second GDM is to put myself back in charge of my health again and get back on track. This past year has been stagnant, granted I gained 10 lbs but some of that is muscle. Losing weight stopped and trying different things hasn't helped my mindset. So the plan is to get back to where I started with my diet of hope. Meal planning, watching what I put in my mouth and not let outside influences make me compromise.
Also, my plans are to go to the gym 160 times this year. Granted I plan on sticking to my normal routine which will exceed 160 times but I'm giving myself grace if needed.
My last big GDM is to work with the family on our back yard. Kelly is turning 16 this fall and our dream is to be able to host it in our backyard. We've made a list of things that need to be/ want to get done.
My last GDM and the most important is to focus on my relationship with God. Today's daily verse spoke to me, it was Isaiah 43:19. After my quiet time I hit Instagram and the positive affirmation pages I follow just confirmed my feelings.
I'm proud of myself, I am loved, I believe in myself and I will walk in my strengths, I will love others as best as I can and encourage others to do the same.








*Carrie*