Sunday, January 07, 2018


 This week has been a emotional roller coaster.
I've made a commitment to myself to be more positive, to be more grateful for the things that transpire in my life. That positive commitment has been challenged and like most people would I didn't like how I reacted.
We began a new contract at work and our raise, for the foreseeable next 5 years is 13 cents. Wasn't what any of us were expecting. Having to deal with the disappointment and co workers complaining hasn't helped the negative feelings that already exude from some of my co workers. Trying very hard not to fall into that trap.
My other trigger came yesterday when we went to our Girl Scout cookie kickoff.
The lines for the activities and narrow space in which to maneuver, with bitchy type A moms just put me in a hyper critical mood. Of course then started the self bashing, which thankfully I quickly nixed.
I took it to God, asked for forgiveness and asked myself why it bothers me so much. That is something I'm still processing.
I didn't take my frustrations out on people but I complained about everything. I don't like when I become that person and all I can do is continue to grow and be better.

This first week of the new year is over and I am doing very well on my goals. Here's to staying strong and making myself proud.

Our Christmas Amaryllis has bloomed and was so pretty, I really liked the variegated pink instead of the traditional red.
This week the kids go back to school, scouts starts back up and cookie season starts Saturday, and I'm also planning on working some overtime to help pay for my shed. Plans are moving forward and shifting too. Instead of 12x20, it may be 16x16. Thankfully Rob is getting on board answering all my questions and giving me even more ideas.
I'm getting very excited.
Here's to continued growth, consistent blogging, and beauty around every corner.

Monday, January 01, 2018

Happy New Year 2018

Last night as we rang in the new year with fireworks, the neighborhood thundered with other families doing the same. Besides smoke from the fireworks there was something in the air. It felt magical.
This morning I sat down and wrote in my journal for the first time since October 2016, wow, seriously?
As I wrote, really messy too, I came upon a realization. My blog is going to be about me and mine  not about trying to grow a possible blog following. I need to go back to or find new ways to love my blog.
This leads me to my one little word, except right now I have two. Focus and Intention.
This is my mind set right now.
My Goals, Dreams, Manifestations for 2018:
I'm driving myself crazy with the plans for a 12x20 gambrel shed. Happily crazy, excited, can't wait to start building. This shed brings me a bigger craft room and even more importantly, my girls will have their own room. My plan is to have them in there by March/April.
My second GDM is to put myself back in charge of my health again and get back on track. This past year has been stagnant, granted I gained 10 lbs but some of that is muscle. Losing weight stopped and trying different things hasn't helped my mindset. So the plan is to get back to where I started with my diet of hope. Meal planning, watching what I put in my mouth and not let outside influences make me compromise.
Also, my plans are to go to the gym 160 times this year. Granted I plan on sticking to my normal routine which will exceed 160 times but I'm giving myself grace if needed.
My last big GDM is to work with the family on our back yard. Kelly is turning 16 this fall and our dream is to be able to host it in our backyard. We've made a list of things that need to be/ want to get done.
My last GDM and the most important is to focus on my relationship with God. Today's daily verse spoke to me, it was Isaiah 43:19. After my quiet time I hit Instagram and the positive affirmation pages I follow just confirmed my feelings.
I'm proud of myself, I am loved, I believe in myself and I will walk in my strengths, I will love others as best as I can and encourage others to do the same.


Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Fall holiday hike

Yesterday we went up to Mt. Lemmon to go on a nature walk at the Aspen trail and to see the fall colors.
While it may be 90+ degrees down in Tucson, Mt. Lemmon was a refreshing 60.
And while the leaves aren't at their peak yet, they're still beautiful to behold.

I really should have grabbed more leaves and pine cones on our walk.

I think I'm going to call this picture the stop light tree. Obviously you can see why.
Being on the mountain and walking on the trails brings such a sense of peace.
At first Wyatt was grumpy, I can't blame him, he had just done a 10 mile hike the day before with the boy scouts and was sore and sunburned. He later confessed that we were driving him crazy with all the stopping. That's when I explained to think of this as a nature walk and not a hike, to look around and enjoy.
By the end of our nature walk Wyatt was in a good mood but Chelsea was the one who was getting grumpy and wanted to go home.
This picture of the kids is one that kinda cracks me up. When we started out on the walk we were wearing jackets, except Rob who never wears one, by the end of our walk we see us in three stages. Chelsea still wearing her jacket, Wyatt in his t-shirt and Kelly who is sporting a tank top. 
The weather was just right for the t shirt.
 After some rock climbing and Chelsea whining that she wanted more beef jerky and was hungry we headed for the truck.
We tortured them by going up to Summerhaven and walking around the general store and then over to Ski Valley where we encountered 4 deer crossing the road.
Now we didn't make them get out and walk, oh no, they got to eat snacks.I  on the other hand hopped into the bed of the truck as we cruised down from the U of A observation station parking lot to ski valley, snapping pictures with my phone. I got plenty of finger pointing and weird looks from the people driving up that's for sure.
Once we got back into town we swung by Carl's Jr for a late lunch and headed home to chill.

Thursday, October 05, 2017

Cricut Make something you love- Phoenix

Last week, me and two friends, Julie and Jill, drove up to Phoenix to attend the Cricut Make Something You Love event that introduces us to the new Cricut Maker machine. 
Not only did we get to see the Maker in action and try it out, we also go to play with the Easy Press and the Bright Pad. The event was held in this cool art gallery that complimented the Cricut vibe that was going on.
 I was super excited about being there and was hoping it was the push I needed to get my creative juices flowing. It was.
Something about that day sparked me, and its really hard to put into words.
I think one of the things it boils down to is that I miss what I once had, and that was being a stay at home mom.
Like many other moms I need to work to support my family, and the time that I used to create and write on my blog were now working hours and that put my creative life on the back burner, way back on the burner.
Creating in the evenings when the family was home was hard on them and me. Just writing about it I can feel the swirls of emotion.
To this day I keep praying for an answer to how I go about having a larger craft room, one that can accommodate the kids if they want to hang with me or even the hubby.
Added on top of that is my youngest asking to have her own room. Big fat sigh. I would love to be able to give her her own space, but where would I put everything?
I'm already overflowing the room.
Anyway, during one of our conversations my friend Julie remarked how I needed to start blogging again.
She is right.
So, even if its only short snippets I'm going to keep updating.

BACK TO THE CRICUT MAKER, there are so many opportunities that I can foresee using this machine. the capabilities of the knife blade for balsa wood and the rotary for fabric have my mind going in all sorts of fun directions.
While I've had my eye on getting a heat press, I know, I have no room whatsoever, the easy press was something I felt more comfortable with. It's lightweight, super stinking easy to use and from a brand that I trust.
It's definitely on my Christmas list.
Plus, it will finally get me to use the iron on vinyl that I've been hoarding, because I was too nervous to use my iron and the vinyl not staying on.
I really want that Easy Press.
I've had a Cricut since the first machine, my baby bug that was 6 x 12 to now having the original Explore. I've demonstrated it as an employee of Jo-Ann's to being a part of the Cricut Demo Army back in 2010. There is something about this company that has never pushed me away and that has continued to challenge me as a crafter to explore new avenues and techniques.

I believe my dream job would be to work from home creating anything that makes people smile and that fulfills that creative need that I have to give back and show homemade kindness whether that is creating cards, party decor, home decor or anything else my imagination whips up.
 Until such time, I will do my best to carve out what time I can and fulfill that creative need as best as I can.      Much love, Carrie

Wednesday, June 07, 2017

Welcome back Carrie! What's been going on?
Work got busy so I couldn't blog during the day and most nights I'm asleep around 9pm.
I must say these are the hardest posts to type, so much has been going on and I have missed months of keeping track, I just don't know where to start.

Since January I've gained about 5lbs. I'm not sure how much is muscle but it seems like every time I have a cheat meal I gain a pound of concrete that doesn't want to come back off. To combat the gain I've started working out in more of a HIIT style and I've still gained more weight. I can honestly say I'm struggling and lost right now.
So did I get back into my wedding dress for my 20th anniversary? No, I was still about an inch or two short in the back to get it buttoned up. Rob said I would have ripped the dress but it was close. I'm not giving up though, from what I've been able to see, from the profile I follow on Instagram it may take another year or two to get my body where I want to be.

 Another thing I have been working on is reading different self help books. I tend to find them fun and interesting. I've written down some questions that I truly need to meditate on to see if this is the way I'm being guided. One question I have is, if blogging is something that I think about and take notes on and pin ideas on Pinterest, quite often actually, is this what I'm supposed to be doing? Am I ready to re- commit to blogging again like I used too?
I've been thinking about my strengths and the skills that I've used over the years and I'm trying to see where it may be leading me. I have revisited an idea that I've had and now I'm trying to see if I'm willing to see it through to the next step.
Where is my path leading to?
 I will start by saying that I really enjoy my job, and the opportunities that it has provided our family.
Creatively I am suffering.
I have a room full of stuff that I haven't been using and to be honest there is some guilt associated with having all that money spent on craft supplies not being used and the fact that Chelsea keeps asking for her own room. True, she also keeps asking when are we going to move into a bigger home too.
Anyway, I'm hoping to alleviate my creative woes soon and have a partner or two to help keep me motivated. I will also meditate and pray over my path and ask for some guidance.

Saturday, March 11, 2017

My valentines were a huge hit and I still need to find a way to transfer pictures from my main pc to my google account so that I have access to everything and incorporate more photos into my blog.
Work has finally begun to pick up and I enjoy being busy. Granted it doesn't leave me any time to blog during the day, so I'm trying it out on my tablet while I hang with the family watching tv at night.
 On Wednesday we finished up another girl scout cookie season. Chelsea sold about 425 cookies and it was her best year emotionally, We had very little in the way of breakdowns and whining. She is really learning how to work with the other girls but she struggles at listening to what the customers want.
This year I wasn't the cookie mom and it made the season fly by with very little stress. I'm still debating if I want to continue next year with girl scouts but we'll see how the rest of the spring and end of year stuff goes.
This last month has been crazy, I've needed a root canal and found out that I need 3 crowns, thank you for double dental insurance. Hopefully the cost won't be crazy high. The suburban, or Sabrina as we call her, had some issues so we were late in getting her new registration until last night.
Let's see, we found out that Mikey and his family are moving by the end of April. They're not moving too far away, just to Rita Ranch so that they stay in the Vail school district.
We've had sleepovers and birthday parties. My house is a wreck and I have no motivation to do anything about it. I've tweaked a nerve in my back and have taken the last few days off at the gym hoping it will help. As frustrating as that is, my long term health is more important then to keep pushing myself where I can make my back issues worse.

Monday, February 13, 2017

Tomorrow is Valentines and my office has organized a good old fashioned party where we are handing out Valentines to each other and having a bag decorating contest.
I have designed everything on my Cricut and tonight will cut everything out, put it all together. Nothing like waiting until the last minute to finish up, especially when I have been designing and making plans for two weeks. I will say that my valentines are based off of the create a critter cartridge and a quick search of animal puns. Since my time is short, I will once again use the print and cut feature with my machine. While not as impressive as piecing each animal together, I think with some added dimension I can make them stand out.

I bought a couple of new toys that came in last week and I immediately loaned them out to my church for a video our pastors are shooting. I bought a 3 piece umbrella light set and a softbox for a quick studio photography setup. Once I get them back I plan on taking them for a spin, I have already told the kids that we will be doing some portraits and I'm hoping to use it for taking pictures of things that I make. Wyatt is excited because he wants to use it for making videos on you tube. Yeah, we'll see about that. Who knows, maybe I'll start making videos. I think right now I'll start with taking better pictures first.
I seem to have a renewed love for my photography and wanting to learn how to be more effective in editing and overall composition. We''ll see once I get the chance to set up and play around with the light set and then start working in photoshop elements to play with the images.
One of the new products that I'm looking into getting is a pocket printer from Amazon. It will be nice to have quick picks off my phone and to be able to create, when I do create, fun new sizes on my pages.
Maybe my new found creativity has to do with a co worker who just bought a new DSLR camera after suffering through a point and shoot. Maybe its a new book from Amy Tangerine that has me wondering where to start again creatively. And maybe it could be that I don't want to work 7-3:30 five days a week. Whatever the case may be, I'm looking at the big guy upstairs and taking baby steps to get moving.